Swamped!!!!!

The past week has been everything for me with my emotional gauge bopping all around the place. I swear it has been from stress to relief, pain to joy, surprise to wow it really is what I think it is, and finally lonely to accompanied. School is out for the summer (yeah I don't have to be responsible for kids, lesson plans, and grades). I spent Wednesday night (until 12 at the school and until 2 after leaving the school) inventorying my Spanish library(monotonous, but methodical my kind or organization :-)

Thursday I intended to spend working on the other paperwork and finishing inventory, but rather I spent the entire day trying to play catch up with my brain and body on two separate planets. At four I finally gave up the battle and went home, covered my windows with heavy dark blankets, threw something (not sure what i did put in there) into the crock pot, and CRASHED for about 3 hours. I was woken by the phone, and then spent the next 4 hours trying to wake up from my insane nap....at about 10 I finally resumed my work.

Friday I worked and worked and worked, finished my stuff, went out with the ladies from work, and then took a full on nap in the back seat of my car while waiting for my friend Chris to get off work so he could work on my car. Why in the back seat of my car? Well for several very LOGICAL reasons, and I promise they are really my reasons.....First, I was in Billings and I live 30 miles out (too far to drive out and back in an hour), Second, I was really tired, Third, I was super super tired, Fourth, because the closest place I could think of going to was the Church and I knew I couldnt go in and take a nap, Fifth, because I had a blanket and a pillow in my car and WHY not? Really, I think the brain cannot absorb enough O2 when you don't get enough sleep and so I basically pulled over, parked in the Church lot, and gave in! (for those of you who live in Billings and I could have come to your place, I COULDNT MAKE IT!!!!!! It was pretty bad.

Well Long story Short, he fixed my car (very kind) and I went home (after a short game of Phase 10 with Abigail). I went to bed and forced myself to sleep....it felt really good. I have slept a lot at strange hours of the day the past week, but I am going to get back into the right habit soon. I hope!!!!!!
Anyways, since I have been home, things have been crazy like the always are on the farm.....I am glad though, it is a totally different type of work when you are out here....it is slow, steady, and repetative....you learn it well, and then your body just goes on command.....then you are left free to explore the very vast and seemingly endless corners of your simple yet complex and unconquered space otherwise known as your BRAIN.....

I drove tractor all day yesterday, and I felt pretty good about it....in fact I thoroughly enjoyed up and down the field....I was in control of making straight beautiful rows....it was right down my alley.

Today was seed cutting, not as much fun, but certainly charming in its own way.....who doesnt like chopping things into pieces? especially with their hands.....anways, it has been fun, but tiring and now it is late again and I am worn out....Gettting up in the morining to take a look at a different world from off the seat of a bike.....hopefully!!!!! wish my luck!